Innocent Treasure

Seriously can you think of the time in your life when you wanted to grow up-so you could stay up later? Or do what you wanted to? How is that working out for you now? For me-it's not going the way i thought it would-being 'grown-up' or somewhat in that category-now. I still look at myself as a kid at times. I am the same height i was in the last three years in high school,the same facial expressions,the same laugh,the same tears,the same parents, and the same yearbooks. The one thing that i do know is that my family has changed-its bigger! My cousins have kids and we are still close as a family. I love each and everyone of them-it's hard for me to accept that I am in the grown-up category. However, my thoughts are not like what they were as a teenager-my focused has changed. That doesn't mean that I don't remember those thoughts, feelings,or confusion. I remember writing since I was around eleven years old-I kept a journal throughout high school. I can close my eyes and see my memory of events and how it effected me. I hope that I can be a positive example for all of my cousins and their children. I also hope that they realize that know matter what their family loves them-unconditionally. As the seasons change and the holidays are approaching again-I look forward to a family celebration-together of Christ's Birth.

Here We Are Again

Here we are again, the whole family at the beach. The time it takes to get a trip together can be quite phenomenal. Nevertheless, the time that we will spend together is going to be worth the stress that we have all experienced.
After getting our start out this morning(Friday) –we finally arrived at Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. The trip took about four and half hours –with the rain that spontaneously showered us from time to time. Of course we have to stop at least once; I think that is a record breaker for us!
The ocean has a really calming effect, especially for me. My hope was to eventually move closer to the beach and live there for the rest of my days. I think that is a futuristic goal of mine- :)

I can remember coming to the beach when I was younger, I always loved it. Plus, I really was heartbroken when we had to leave. This time around, my brother and I were able to help out with the cost. It feels great having that capability.

The weekend can fly so fast-time wise. I really enjoyed the ocean-the smell,the sound, and the sand. I love the sunrises and sunsets too. We went to the hotels’ restaurant for breakfast, went to Krispy Kreme and went to the East of Chicago for some pizza. East of Chicago was like the Chunky cheese back at home. Before we left, I went and got a game card to play-soon my family was playing some games. For a short time frame we were just being together-no complaints –no criticism,no worries-from work, a real vacation.

It’s hard to let go sometimes and just enjoy being together as a family. It’s even harder once you have grown up and the innocence is not there, instead the plethora of ideas, emotions, selfishness, and self-absorption exploding around and to everyone. The “why can’t we just get along” syndrome overwhelms me every time. Partly because-I am the one over analyzing the situation and not accepting my family for who they are-family!
Nevertheless, this is my family-whom I love. No matter what or where–I will try to be the positive. There love is a constant-never changing for each other and me! Enjoy your vacation time-you never know if it will be your last!
Thanks for the family that loves me know matter what-Thanks God!

In time...

I know my full potential...
I have my life at ease..
I know who loves me..
I know what is true..
In time ... my real love will find me.
In time... the other memories will fade.
In time...

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Home Sweeter Home...Praising God in the Storms

Well, it seems like forever since I have written on my blog page. It's probably because it has
been a month . I have been to Mexico City in the last part of July and again this past week. It has been a very different experience and I appreciate home a lot. I always have tried to not take advantage of the comforts of home-being in another country just makes me more thankful.
Just recently-there was a family member of mine-a cousin- that had major surgery-today. He had to have a shunt replaced. So please pray for him. I love all of my family,cousins,aunts,uncles,and my parents. Family is very important to me,because we are also a part of God's family. There is nothing too big or small that God can't handle. I am praying for my cousins' recovery. I know that this is hard for the parents. I also know that we get our help from the LORD!

Memories of Music

Music by definition:Vocal or instrumental sounds possessing a degree of melody, harmony, or rhythm, has by far been a forefront definition for myself. I was aware of music before I was even born. I have a love for music that is embedded within my soul. The memories I have of my grandmother playing the piano,my mother,uncle ,aunt and grandfather singing songs with beautiful harmonization carries me through-even today.
There was a time win I was younger that 'The Poole Family' traveled about and sang at various church locations,revivals,and communities about the wonderful love of Jesus.
When some of those very familiar pieces of music are played-my memory takes over and I can see and hear those events again. No one could play like my grandmother-she would 'spice' the piano key changes up-to create a different sound effect.
Songs like-Hem of His Garment, He did it All for me,We have this moment,He looked Beyond my fault,are just a few examples of the songs they would sing.
I recently took the recording that the family has of "the Poole Family' Album that my mother had converted to a CD-and used that as my song I sung at church-He did it All for me.
The second verse my late grandmother had sung it as a solo- I sang along with her and harmonized to her beautiful voice as if she were right there with me playing and singing.

My grandmothers' inspiration and devotion to the Lord-has passed down among her children and the grandchildren as a witness to all of us. There are cousins that became pastors and other cousins that use their talents. The rest - the Lord has control over.
Myself-I was a prodigal daughter that returned and my life has the peace because of Him. Jesus continually Looked beyond my faults because He did it all for me I reached out and touched the Hem of His Garment for my soul was saved and healed. We have this moment -continually to live in that moment because life is ever changing -people are here then gone,families grow and people move away,and memories are what we have. Music lives within my family and myself. Jesus is the only way.

Celebrating Our Parents

If you are fortunate enough-like myself- that your parents are still with you on this earth. Tell them how much they mean to you. the sacrifices that they made for their children and the dedication that had. Yes- even say thank you to those parents who may have not given the best environment,nurturing,and a Godly upbringing. Those parents need to see the Heavenly Father through you. No matter what-we still have to abide by what He says.
I deeply love and adore my parents-I would do anything for them within my own little human power. I try to spend as much time as I can with them and go places with them. I know one day they will be in Heaven, and I will have to learn to be without them in this world.
Make sure that the parents you have know that you love them, and that God loves them too. Don't waste time being bitter,make time to be a witness. Don't let them be separated from you here, or they will not be with you in heaven if they are not saved.

I hope that every mother and father have had a wonderful Mother's and Father's Day :)

Keeping it cool

There has been a lot of events lately :) I have been working more over the last few months on trying to ~keep it cool~. This can range from the heat waves to the over abundance of work-i am thankful i have a job-to keeping it cool under pressure.
Sometimes we can all experience difficulty in both-just know that your not alone!

Spend the time

Spending time with the ones you love can mean more to them than you really know;they may not be hear that long. Every opportunity you have to do something with your mom, dad,sister,or brother needs to be taken.

Recently, I went with my mother to a ladies luncheon that her church had put together. There was great food,great fellowship with other women,great singing,and a beautiful speaker with a meaningful message.

Understanding

Its what your suppose to do
maybe with a forgive you, from an apology
instead of holding a grudge to me.

Its what I am to do,and to learn every day
the mistakes I made,to say I'm sorry
and release the pain from within.

Life is like this, give in time
will heal you and I; maybe we will go on
with our own lives.
It doesn't seems fair the way life can turn
it doesn't seem real their backs to me now.

One day I will do this,
to yet live again,forgive to forget to understand

Flashback...

Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

This is from todays' bible verse.. and it hit me like a mack truck. Delight-meaning- enjoyment; joy; rapture: YOURSELF (us) ; in the Lord and he will give-(meaning-to present voluntarily and without expecting compensation) the desires-(meaning-A wish or longing) of your heart.

I was married-now I 'm not. I thought I was happy. I wasn't happy without God totally in my life . I wasn't happy without my family in my life. I remember calling upon God one evening-in the car. Crying out to him, Why am I here? If I don't make everyone happy-what am I doing here?

About a year and half later-things changed. God allowed me to be removed from an unhealthy marriage. A marriage where HE wasn't the focus. Yes it hurt. It hurt a lot! I didn't want to face it-I didn't want it to happen,but it did.
My Father God-carried me-I felt his presence several times through the experience. No one knows like He does. No one Heals like He can.

I still want to find my some-one-special and maybe have kids. I have to ask- is it His Will. Then Psalms 37:4 reminds me to delight myself in the Lord. The Lord won't ever leave,judge,or accuse me. My Father will always love me no matter what. I seek Him. I know Him more-He knows the desires of my heart and He can make it happen. He will give-without expecting compensation. He has already given His life for me. I should be content.
I'm a child of the King.

Remember to keep Psalm 37:4 close to your heart-
Have a beautiful delight in the Lord....He knows you!

It Is Finished..

It is Finished...Our Lord and Savior Arose on the Third day. Those who were against him thought they had won-that Friday. They just didn't know,realize,or believe who he was.
Up from the Grave He Arose! With a mighty triumph o're His foes! He arose a victor from the dark domain and He LIVES Forever with His saints to reign...

How powerful and wonderful it is-
May Your Easter Be a powerful Celebration!

Spring is just around the corner or two. Don't get too excited. the weather can fool you. A beautiful disguise, for a change of atmosphere and cooler clothing.
Thats true within ourselves-we can also be a disguise.

Waiting

Waiting...was not one of my strong points. Being impatient was more like it. However, when it comes to being angry-we need to wait. In Psalm 4:4, "Be angry and do no sin; on your bed, reflect in your heart and be still"-wait before you respond in anger. This is a hard thing to do-but it CAN be done.

The natural reaction to being hurt by a comment or by what someone has done to us- is reacting back in anger. that situation becomes escalated and words are exchanged and damaged has progressed. Friendships are broken and sometimes do not survive a mending process. That's why its so important to wait,to cool off, and to think through the reaction.

When someone has hurt you by a reaction or in conversation or even by an action,we need to cool off before responding. Anger is a natural emotion-but its our reaction that could be negative or positive.

Prayer in the moment can help to calm us down. Wait to react and talk calmly to resolve the situation.
I know its hard- I have an Irish heritage temper...but I have seen by example and God tells us not to sin in our anger. We can do it!


Information based from the daily devotional for women from Journey.

Refreshing

Writing has always been a refreshing outlet for me. I mainly wrote poems whenever a situation arose that I needed to deal with. It's a gift that has always come naturally to me-totally God given.
I have shared some of my poems wiht family and very close friends. Writing is also like revealing my very personal thoughts and feelings. I am taking a venture and will be sharing some of my poems here :)

Enjoyment

Enjoyment of writing has to come from the heart. The desire from within yourself to create or express a thought or a story. So enjoy! Write it out!

It can be about anything~~let your imagination take a turn.