Innocent Treasure

Seriously can you think of the time in your life when you wanted to grow up-so you could stay up later? Or do what you wanted to? How is that working out for you now? For me-it's not going the way i thought it would-being 'grown-up' or somewhat in that category-now. I still look at myself as a kid at times. I am the same height i was in the last three years in high school,the same facial expressions,the same laugh,the same tears,the same parents, and the same yearbooks. The one thing that i do know is that my family has changed-its bigger! My cousins have kids and we are still close as a family. I love each and everyone of them-it's hard for me to accept that I am in the grown-up category. However, my thoughts are not like what they were as a teenager-my focused has changed. That doesn't mean that I don't remember those thoughts, feelings,or confusion. I remember writing since I was around eleven years old-I kept a journal throughout high school. I can close my eyes and see my memory of events and how it effected me. I hope that I can be a positive example for all of my cousins and their children. I also hope that they realize that know matter what their family loves them-unconditionally. As the seasons change and the holidays are approaching again-I look forward to a family celebration-together of Christ's Birth.

Here We Are Again

Here we are again, the whole family at the beach. The time it takes to get a trip together can be quite phenomenal. Nevertheless, the time that we will spend together is going to be worth the stress that we have all experienced.
After getting our start out this morning(Friday) –we finally arrived at Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. The trip took about four and half hours –with the rain that spontaneously showered us from time to time. Of course we have to stop at least once; I think that is a record breaker for us!
The ocean has a really calming effect, especially for me. My hope was to eventually move closer to the beach and live there for the rest of my days. I think that is a futuristic goal of mine- :)

I can remember coming to the beach when I was younger, I always loved it. Plus, I really was heartbroken when we had to leave. This time around, my brother and I were able to help out with the cost. It feels great having that capability.

The weekend can fly so fast-time wise. I really enjoyed the ocean-the smell,the sound, and the sand. I love the sunrises and sunsets too. We went to the hotels’ restaurant for breakfast, went to Krispy Kreme and went to the East of Chicago for some pizza. East of Chicago was like the Chunky cheese back at home. Before we left, I went and got a game card to play-soon my family was playing some games. For a short time frame we were just being together-no complaints –no criticism,no worries-from work, a real vacation.

It’s hard to let go sometimes and just enjoy being together as a family. It’s even harder once you have grown up and the innocence is not there, instead the plethora of ideas, emotions, selfishness, and self-absorption exploding around and to everyone. The “why can’t we just get along” syndrome overwhelms me every time. Partly because-I am the one over analyzing the situation and not accepting my family for who they are-family!
Nevertheless, this is my family-whom I love. No matter what or where–I will try to be the positive. There love is a constant-never changing for each other and me! Enjoy your vacation time-you never know if it will be your last!
Thanks for the family that loves me know matter what-Thanks God!